Gospel singer Jessica Reedy has been ashamed of her out-of-wedlock pregnancy, but decided to come out with the truth after surviving a scary accident.
The “Put It On the Altar” singer put it on Instagram, showing off her baby bump, as well as her banged up SUV, while admitting that she is “flawed, broken, still figuring it all out and grateful.”
The BET “Sunday Best” Season 2 runner-up, who first knew of her pregnancy in the spring of 2018 and planned to wed the baby’s father in July, says that on her 30th birthday, July 12th, “two days before our wedding, I discovered news that would alter my life.”
Though the Purity Records CEO and recording artist did not go into detail about what that life-altering news was, it wasn’t good.
Whatever happened, seems to have derailed her love life and as she said, left her “bitter again.”
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For the past couple months I made the choice to hide. I made this amazing love announcement for my engagement, prepared to marry the man I loved, and on my birthday, two days before our wedding, I discovered news that would altar my life. Finding out two months prior that I was pregnant, I was elated to finally have a family of my own. But after my discovery, and heartache, I secluded myself and began the next process of a familiar cycle of Functional depression. Disappointment and rejection are a horrible combination for a person like me who’s heart is so tender. But because of my two boys, I began to pretend I needed no one, and that I was fine! I was angry, and confused, bitter (again) and just hurt.. but something happened.. this past Thursday I was in a horrible car accident that was suppose to take my life and my two year old. The accident left me with a few bruises, a concussion and a temporary stuttering symptom that made it very difficult to articulate my words. My two year old, walked away without a bruise. And my unborn child, without any problem. I wondered why God didn’t let me die. So much bad had been happening, and there I was at death and was denied. I realized I have been putting importance in the wrong things. I realized God had been trying to slow me down enough so he could heal me, but I was too busy being busy so I could avoid the pain in my heart. But today, PROUDLY I SAY, hi, I am Jessica Reedy, flawed, broken, still figuring it all out and grateful. I love you all. What matters, probably doesn’t really matter… be who you are.. worship the Lord and take it one day at a time. God Bless you all. No more apologies, I’m just walking out the script that was written for me. Love on your children, and appreciate another chance.
Originally, Reedy had shared news of her engagement online, but those videos and happy posts have since been deleted.
“After my discovery, and heartache, I secluded myself and began the next process of a familiar cycle of functional depression. Disappointment and rejection are a horrible combination for a person like me whose heart is so tender. But because of my two boys, I began to pretend I needed no one and that I was fine!”
But all that pretense went out the window when she got into what she calls a “horrible” car accident with her two-year-old in tow. It left the Stellar Award-winner with bruises, a concussion, and what she described as “a temporary stuttering symptom that made it very difficult to articulate my words.”
For Reedy, though painful, the automobile wreck provided just the wake-up call she needed. Thankfully, the toddler and unborn child were unharmed.
“I realized I have been putting importance in the wrong things,” she mused. “I realized God had been trying to slow me down enough so he could heal me, but I was too busy being busy so I could avoid the pain in my heart.”
Now, instead of hiding in shame and running from the pain, she is sharing her truth. “No more apologies,” said the expectant mom. “I’m just walking out the script that was written for me.”
Over the past several weeks, Reedy had been posting cryptic videos about making mistakes, not worrying about criticism and negativity. Now it all makes sense because the vocalist, who first stepped into the spotlight in 2009 through a gospel singing competition, has revealed that she has made a mistake about which she refuses to be ashamed.
In a 2012 interview with EEW Magazine president, Dianna Hobbs, Reedy said her out-of-wedlock pregnancy back in college made her the object of much criticism and ridicule. When a mother looked at her with disdain for becoming pregnant, the Saginaw songstress said, “It destroyed me. Oh God, it destroyed me. My heart broke even more and I hid in the house for the rest of my pregnancy.”
This time around, however, she’s breaking that cycle of hiding and doing her best to move forward with her life as she expects baby number three.
SOURCE: EEW Magazine Online – Rebecca Johnson