Bethel Music worship leader Kalley Heiligenthal publicly shared the anguish she’s feeling after burying her 2-year-old daughter on Saturday despite praying fervently for her child to be resurrected.
Even though Heiligenthal is feeling the weight of her loss, she also expressed her overwhelming gratitude and ambition to push forward, knowing that Olive is with Jesus in Heaven and one day they will be reunited.
“Last night around 11:55 I felt the tension. The resistance to move into a decade without Olive,” Heiligenthal wrote New Years Day in a post on Instagram.
“I can access the searing shock of the last couple weeks and stop there, but if I push one step further, 2019 is overwhelmingly saturated with treasured memories I would never trade and will fight to cherish,” she continued.
Olive was buried on Dec. 28 and a GoFundMe page for the family has since raised over $74,500. Although the determined mother’s prayers were not answered as she had hoped, Heiligenthal said she’s walking into 2020 with gratitude.
“I choose tender thankfulness. As for the future, as I feel the noble aching lack of her not with us for a lifetime, the better truth is I can look just beyond and know so vividly that this life is only a breath, and for all eternity we’ll be close again. Jesus bought that for us. So I choose triumphant thankfulness. And the more I do it the more I feel it,” she added.
“There is a Heaven that is more real and vivid than what we have here and it’s pressing in on us. Jesus is alive, Olive is alive in Him, so we press back and live fully alive too,” she concluded.
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SOURCE: Christian Post, Jeannie Law